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Being young and in love made you feel like being trapped in a snow globe, where everything inside was beautiful, like a world of fantasy where time stopped and everything, everyone, outside it didn’t matter. You felt like you can give up anything, anyone, who would try to disrupt that infinite, magical feeling. Because at that moment, that addicting feeling was all you cared about. What you did not know was that the magic you so dearly hung on to slowly consumed you, to the point where you were no longer you; and the people who cared about you, who you thought were trying to take your happiness away, were worried because you did not see the snow globe for what it really was — a hollow eating you up and isolating you from the things and people you valued the most. These people knew that what you were having was unhealthy and that, at some point, it had to end; but you did not listen. Until you learned it the hard way. Until this hollow drained the life out of you. You then wondered what went wrong, why the happiness did not last. You focused so much on this fleeting magic, that you became so dependent on it. You ignored everything else that you no longer even know how to appreciate other things. Your dependence blinded you, that despite the misery the relationship brought you, you did not want to let go of it because you’ve been into it for so long, for years, that it was almost the only thing you know. The magic was no longer there, but you were scared of getting out of the hollow, scared of what was outside, like a hesitant kid about to enter a strange room for the first time. Then, finally, finally you did — you climbed out of it. The glow that welcomed you was painful at first. Pain was inevitable; a love story ended, after all. Time healed you, and you saw things more clearly, you saw things on a different light. You learned how to channel love to people who actually deserve it. There are days when you still become nostalgic of what you had, you remember the good times in the snow globe, but you know that that’s just how it is — you indulge on the unhealthy, addicting feeling, you become drained and exhausted, you learn that you deserve better, you gather strength to wake up from the dream, you make realizations, and you move on.